World in spite of the rose tint glasses...

In today’s world, love is only a game, goodness a rarity and humanity obsolete. If there’s a god, how can this b d state of d world? My thoughts are tangled, beliefs shattered and faith shaken. Religious or not, I was a believer , believer of good over  evil, of truth, of justice, of karma, of good deeds, of the fact that the universe has its own machinery, a flawless machinery, working rhythmically to keep everything in continuum, to maintain the fine balance of the universe. All I believed… yet the more I dug my heels in and affirmed my faith, the more I witnessed to lose it all. I always consoled my battered soul, that hardships are more for the strong, as they are resilient and have the strength to sail through such stormy times.  Yet I am only human, and at times wish for some peace and quiet, to get away from all my troubles, and rest my throbbing head. Sometimes, I get tired, tired of being alone, tired of taking the pain to be right, and to be strong… That’s when I wonder, how much more? Isn’t it enough for the day? Does it always have to be uphill, yet thorny, and stormy the whole time? When I’ve been willing to take others’ troubles as my own, and glad that I have been at the brunt of my friends’ mistakes, merely cause of my love for them, no matter how foolish, is it too much to wish for justice and to be treated fairly? But alas, that’s not possible in the present age. Nothing is fair, justice is an illusion, and one is deemed foolish, difficult, and unwise to walk on such principles or to have such expectations… Aye, maybe so; expectations after all, are the cause of disappointment. True as that is, where are we without values? Humans are deemed as the superior species, only because of their higher intelligence, greater brain capacity as compared to other beings of this planet, and cause of our sensibility and ability to think, act, feel, learn from nature, and not be merely ruled by our carnal instincts. Without humanity, compassion, love, honesty, sense of justice, dignity and other values, we are no greater than the animals of the wild. When we cry sensibility in the name of opportunism, deceit and unfair means to get ahead in life, we turn our surroundings, nay, even our entire “society” into an urban jungle. We may progress in terms of science and technology, where we transcend newer barriers by the day, and see a greater culmination of science and spirituality, and logical proofs to our beliefs, we mortals are increasingly, through our lowly selfishness, reversing the hands of time and taking humanity, as such, into its primeval state, albeit with different surroundings.